Baseline Tests and Back in Time a Week or So

Hi everyone! Just a quick update. Went in for my baseline work yesterday. This was an ultrasound and bloodwork to measure my baseline levels so they can better monitor my progress. This is the same work they will be doing at my next appointment and the 3 after that. Miss Kitt said everything looked great. The only thing she noted was that there was a little bit of endometriosis on my left ovary. It completely sucks that it's already back (I just had it all removed in December), but I expected it would be back eventually. She said it was just a little spot and won't affect anything. My right ovary looked beautiful and I could see little follicles all over the place already.

On Thursday I couldn't help but think what a difference a week makes. A week before Thursday, IVF was still just this abstract thing we had been talking about for years. Actually, a year ago, I was saying "let's just pray we don't have to do IVF because we won't be able to afford it". God truly works in mysterious ways. Here we are almost a year later and we still can't afford it, but we're making it work. God's mysterious ways just happens to be low interest credit cards and some very awesome early Christmas/Birthday/Easter/Halloween presents :).

I never want to forget that feeling last week. When she placed the calendar in front of my face, I suddenly forgot how to read a calendar. It looked like mumbo jumbo to me. It was like a big blur. I couldn't understand this language she was speaking and certainly couldn't read the language. No matter how much research I had done, it didn't prepare me for that moment. I had underestimated it. Bret apparantly knew what was going on and wondered why I kept asking certain questions. Finally it all hit me when she said something about coming in the following week. I said "so we're doing this soon huh?" She said "yeah...like next week!" I couldn't breath. I looked at Bret. Bret looked away (he says because I was freaking him out). I looked back at the calendar. Kept thinking "I need to compare this to my business calendar. Can I do all these dates? Well, who cares. I will just have to cancel or reschedule whatever I need to. This comes first." Then I just agreed to whatever she said after that. Shaking my head and thinking "what did we get ourselves into?"

We went to eat after that, to celebrate (or to let it all sink in and not get in a wreck on our way home...however you want to look at it). The whole time I was in disbelief that this abstract thing we had been talking about wasn't so abstract anymore. While we were eating we got a call from the drug company asking for our insurance information. They had already received our prescription. Of course, our insurance didn't cover any of the medicine (No shock there. It's nearly impossible to find an insurance that does.). We get a call on our way home (which is nearly two hours away) for payment information. I nearly wreck trying to multitask and decide it may be in the best interest of myself, Bret, the insurance company, our future children, and all the strangers on the road to give Bret the phone. He took care of the payment info and I freaked out a bit more. Apparantly my bank didn't believe that we would be making a HUGE purchase to a drug company and blocked my card, after they accepted that transaction (thank God). That was fun to take care of. That was a very long and exhausting day.

The very next day we received our medicine. And I freaked out some more. In case you're wondering, I'm not really freaking out any more...okay...maybe a little.

Here's what an IVF calendar looks like. A few things have been changed around, but this is pretty much what she handed me that day, minus the messy notes by me :)



OH I almost forgot! We put my first Climara patch on this morning. This is suppose to help the lining of my uterus by pumping me with more estrogen...I think. Bret asked if I wanted him to do it. Really I could've myself, but I thought it was so sweet that he asked...so I said yes. He's so helpful :) Note to self: be sure to read the instructions even for things that seem so simple.

TOMORROW...my first shot!!!